Past few weeks have been hectic and lots of preparation for the big looming day ahead – not physically but mentally! I could never think that I had it in me to do so much in 3 months. I guess this is my greatest achievement so far as I am now 3 stone lighter and 3 dress sizes thinner and still with a zeal to go on; all of this for that one day in life where I would be the centre of attraction and the apple of so many pairs of eyes. Would I really be that I wonder – I have butterflies in my stomach thinking of the big day and also wondering if it would be a wonderful or a bitter experience?
I have always dreaded this day since I turned 21 and it is no different now even after all these years; it is not about me but about the people and the sheer number of them that get together for an ultimate aim to judge me. I sometimes feel I am all alone in the stage of events and it is just happening on its own course and I have absolutely no control over it; it is this feeling of helplessness that I dread. I hope and pray that the events unfold as simply as everyone claims them to be..
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